Day 5 of cycle, 4th day of clomid

I did not blog yesterday! I had nothing exciting to post. Again today all is well apart from the fact that it wont stop raining!

One more day of clomid to go!

Day 3 of cycle, 2nd day of Clomid

Not had a great day today! I was on an early shift at work so had to take the clomid at about 6am which I am sure did not help much. I have had lots of headaches today and a few hot flushes. It will all we worth it if it works!

I am getting a little addicted to Big Brother at the moment, I am worried I will probably miss it when it is finished! Ahhh

Day 2 of cycle, first day of second cycle of clomid

I have read on other peoples web sites that the side effects of Clomid get less on each cycle. I feel sick! I felt sick on the last cycle and feel sick now, I am used to feeling a little sick because the metformin but the clomid makes it worse.

Not feeling very positive today, I go back to work today after about 9 days off, which is never easy. My period is still fairly heavy, I feel sick and I am being a really, really moody cow!

On the plus side I know I am closer to a positive pregnancy test result today then I was yesterday! Within another 33 days I will know if I am pregnant or not. My fingers are yet again crossed. I was so sure it was going to work on the first cycle I had not really prepared myself for it not working - you can take positive thinking too far!! This cycle I am optimistic, but realistic. It might work, it might not!

Day 1 of cycle - finally!!!

Feeling like crap today! The big blob finally arrived this morning with a vengeance! Very painful, feel like I need the loo all the time, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Still, paracetamol seems to be helping to ease it.

Now the long day count begins! I start the clomid again tomorrow for 5 days. Last time I took it it made me feel very sick, but was on holiday from work so it was copeable, this time I will be starting it just as I return to work after a holiday. It is difficult, I am sure if I told the people at work they might cut me some slack, but not sure they will fully understand, so don't really want to go there!

PCOS is a very common condition, but still one that no one talks about, I think that people still don't fully understand the implications of it. That it is not just fertility that it effects- which is a big deal in itself both physically and emotionally, but also all the additional risks such as heart disease and diabetes! The diabetes is a big deal to me, when I was told that my pancreas may become warn out, my first instinct was to cut down on the things I love - like chocolate, then my second instinct was to make the most of it while I can eat it, since it is almost inevitable that I might become diabetic later on then I won't be able to eat it. You have to work things out yourself, now I am more chilled out about it and try not to think too far ahead, at the moment I am entirely focused on having a baby, the rest I will worry about if or when it happens.

4 days after Provera

Getting frustrated now! For the past 2 days I have been spotting, this can not count as the first day of my period, so I am still waiting for day 1 of my cycle.

Last time I took the Provera my period started 3 days after taking it, but was the shortest period I ever had lasting only 3 days, not sure if that is to do with the Clomid or not. Basically I guess maybe I should take it as a positive sign that this time things are different since the last cycle failed to work. It is hard to be positive all the time!

3 days after Provera

Still a little mad and hormonal! There were signs earlier that my period was going to start today but nothing since. Maybe tomorrow. Must keep smiling!!!

2 days after Provera

Not a bad day again today, my mood has definitely lifted since finishing the provera. Also I am sleeping better, the last couple of days on the Provera I had woken very early in the morning stone cold, then within half an hour I was boiling, then stone cold again, so that was waking me up at about 5am. Today I did not wake up until 8.30am which was nice.

We went to Bristol Harbour festival again today since it was so brill yesterday. That was good, there were a lot more people there today and a lot more going on but my favorite part was still the market stalls. Yesterday while we were out we decided to have some lunch so ate in a nice pub. After the meal I thought I would pay a trip to powder my nose before we hiked off some more. So I go in and do the classic squat over the loo that most ladies do whilst out since loo seats are so disgusting - although that is probably why they are disgusting!! So I am balanced over the loo, the loo roll holder (one of those big metal ones, where you can never find the end!) was by my right shoulder, so I eventually found the end of the loo roll and gave it a tug, and the whole lot fell off the wall!!! So I am balanced there trying to hold my dress up, and hold the loo roll holder on the wall with my right shoulder and try to break off a bit of loo roll. I got myself into a bit of a pickle!!

No sign of the blob yet! Although I did get a few period type pains this morning, last time it started 3 days after I finished the 5 days of Provera so hopefully it will start tomorrow. Then the count down begins!!!

1 Day after Provera!

I am glad to be at the end of the Provera I am now looking forward to my period, last time it took 3 days to arrive! Feeling more chilled out today. Mostly because my hubby took a day off today and we spent the whole day together. We went to the Bristol Harbour Festival which had only really kicked off today but was great, especially the market stalls. More about that tomorrow!

Day 5 on Provera!

The final day of provera is over, so now all I have to do is wait for it to do its magic - bring on a period then I can start my second clomid cycle. I am glad to be at the end of the Provera but now I know I will have an inpatient wait for a period, then start the clomid then have a patient wait to see if it works!

Apart from that feeling very chilled out, I have been trying a few relaxation techniques. One was so good that I woke up half an hour after it by the sound of my snoring!! So feeling more chilled out. On that note I have a ton of ironing to do!

Later

Provera day 4 only 1 more day to go!!

It is good to be coming to the end of the Provera, not that I have had lots of symptoms from it, just feeling very low in mood for the past few days but who's to say I would not have felt like this anyway! It has been almost a year now since we started to try again for a baby, after losing our first baby, then to lose another baby at Christmas. It is so hard to get pregnant, I find it really frustrating, but the battle must go on! I will not stop until we have a baby.

I found a good website today called Family Doctor, it is full of medical facts and information about PCOS and the treatment for it.

Day 3 of Provera

Had a bit of a bad day today, feeling a bit glum about everything.

On the plus side I have been playing the new radio one game on the internet - saviour city, I have become addicted!!!

Day 2 of provera

Well the day did not start well. When I got up this morning I felt in the kind of mood where I would happily shut myself away in a room all day and not talk to anyone. Which was bad since I am on annual leave from work this week and my husband (poor him!) was working from home. I am not sure I can blame the provera for my ratty mood, more likely
1) I had to go to the dentists for a check up today and I really don't like going, although my current dentist is brilliant and really really nice.
2) I am still really peed off that the first cycle of clomid did not work, I was convinced that it would, and that things would work out perfectly and we would all live happily ever after!
3) After wishing from my last cycle from days 27- 35 I was wishing that my period would not come, after on day 35 I found out I was not pregnant I wished it would start so I could start the next cycle off instead of waiting the amount of time the provera takes to work to start it off. Although I think last time it only took about 5 days after the 5 day doses, it is still a long wait when all you really want is a baby!

Anyway on the plus side a really good web site to go to when you are trying for a baby has to be the baby centre there is some great information on there also there are message boards where you can talk to people in a similar situation to yourself which really helps.

Day 1 of provera

I don't think I have had any side effects today, I had none on the first cycle whilst taking Provera. My husband might disagree and say it makes me a bit mad, but today things are fine! 4 more days of provera to go!

Introduction to me

Hi, I am 27 years old. After several years of being fobbed off by Doctors, when I was worried about a complete lack of periods, I was finally diagnosed with PCOS- Poly Cystic Ovaries in 1999 after a blood test and an ultra sound, at that time I had never heard of it.

Then another few years followed and for a while I tried different brands of the pill to control my hormones. However this was not great for me, the pill made me a little mad and very irrational!! So I stopped taking it, then in 2003 I came off the pill and tried to conceive straight away, within a couple of months I was pregnant, I could not believe my luck, however my luck did not last just before Christmas 2003 I was in a car accident at 19 weeks pregnant, my baby was killed. So then we took a break to recover both mentally and physically from what was the most horrific and terrifying time of our lives. In July 2004 we started trying again for a baby, we had just moved house and so GP, my new GP is great. I went to him and had a long chat, he knows lots of up to date stuff about PCOS and suggested that I try Metformin. I started on a low dose of 500mg once a day then increased it to twice a day. In December that year I found out I was pregnant, however on Christmas eve I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks. We waited until the new year to start again, but with no luck so far.

On the 1st June I saw a gynecologist at a new PCOS clinic. He prescribed me provera to bring on a period and clomid to stimulate ovulation, also increased my metformin to 850mg dose twice a day. I have already completed one cycle of clomid on 50mg on days 2-6, with no joy. I have just started the provera to bring on a period to start my second cycle of clomid.

I wanted to start this blog to help keep me sane, through what is a very long cycle - 5 days of provera, then up to 2 week wait for a period then a 35 day cycle. This is going to be a positive blog about the side effects I experience and the roller coaster clomid ride. Ok it does not sound positive but I am sure I can try!

Welcome

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