Almost 36 weeks pregnant - just over 4 weeks to due date!

I can't actually believe that I am now this close to holding our baby. This is the uncomfortable stage of pregnancy where sitting, standing or lying down is only comfortable for about 5 minutes. But I don't care I am just glad to have this little person prodding away inside of me preparing for her escape to the outside world!

In the 3 years of trying for a baby, having had miscarriage after miscarriage, and clomid cycle after clomid cycle I always had my eye on the goal, but never thought I would get here. It always felt so far out of reach, like an impossible dream that I was just taking a shot at. Having said that I could never have given up on it. Trying for a baby takes over your life and relationship, it becomes the most important thing to do, and there are times when it feels like it is too hard and you want to give up. But you have to be in it to win it!! So for everyone who doctors have labelled 'infertile' and for everyone who has had loads of miscarriages and everyone who has failed to get pregnant so far - Don't give up!! I think that is one of 2 most important things to remember when it all seems impossible. The other thing is don't lose track of your relationship with your husband or partner, they are going through it all too and although you may not feel like for them the yearning for a baby is as strong as yours they still have to put up with the mood swings, the tears, the demands (you know what I mean!) and they want to be a Daddy! Take care of each other and the roller coaster ride of trying for a baby with or without fertility treatment will be slightly less stressful!

Ok, one other tip, when you get pregnant - which you will! Don't leave maternity leave too late. I struggled through my last few weeks at work when I knew really I was no good to no one!! If you have a job which involves people putting constant demands on you, with life and death stuff, running around all day on your feet with few breaks, then start maternity leave earlier! I wish I had taken it at around 30 weeks, instead I started at 35 weeks. I was meant to start at 36 weeks but had some holiday to use up luckily! Now I can enjoy scrubbing my whole house from top to bottom to prepare for our little bundle of joy. Also should have more time to blog more! x