Assembling stuff!

Who ever writes the instructions for flat pack stuff should try actually using them!! I managed to assemble the cot fairly quickly despite the instructions or lack of them!! They were just pictures, the funny thing being that it came with 2 different sets of bolts the same thickness but different lengths only in the diagram they are the same length so I had to guess which ones were which and got lucky!! The high chair was fairly easy to assemble although I had much the same problem with pictures to go by! But the pushchair!! The instructions were alright just really really complicated, it took me over 2 hours to assemble it and felt like when I finished a degree certificate should pop out of it somewhere, very complicated stuff, this pram/pushchair seems to do everything and has adjustable frame to go on sand etc! There was me thinking all it had to do was be pushed or stop! This thing has adjustable suspension and everything! My nightmare at the moment is the isofix base I am trying to fit in the car. It is meant to be easy and sounds easy to install but I can not get it to go in properly, I am going to have to get it out and start again, only problem is it is as difficult to get out as it is to get in, once in place it is never coming out the car again!

As for being very pregnant I feel massive! Sleeping is very difficult and uncomfortable, I am looking forward to being woken by a crying baby rather then pain in my hips and legs. This stage is not much fun, I am very impatient! I will be 37 weeks tomorrow so the baby could come any time in the next 5 weeks! That seems very odd, after all this time I still do not believe we are going to have a baby!

Almost 36 weeks pregnant - just over 4 weeks to due date!

I can't actually believe that I am now this close to holding our baby. This is the uncomfortable stage of pregnancy where sitting, standing or lying down is only comfortable for about 5 minutes. But I don't care I am just glad to have this little person prodding away inside of me preparing for her escape to the outside world!

In the 3 years of trying for a baby, having had miscarriage after miscarriage, and clomid cycle after clomid cycle I always had my eye on the goal, but never thought I would get here. It always felt so far out of reach, like an impossible dream that I was just taking a shot at. Having said that I could never have given up on it. Trying for a baby takes over your life and relationship, it becomes the most important thing to do, and there are times when it feels like it is too hard and you want to give up. But you have to be in it to win it!! So for everyone who doctors have labelled 'infertile' and for everyone who has had loads of miscarriages and everyone who has failed to get pregnant so far - Don't give up!! I think that is one of 2 most important things to remember when it all seems impossible. The other thing is don't lose track of your relationship with your husband or partner, they are going through it all too and although you may not feel like for them the yearning for a baby is as strong as yours they still have to put up with the mood swings, the tears, the demands (you know what I mean!) and they want to be a Daddy! Take care of each other and the roller coaster ride of trying for a baby with or without fertility treatment will be slightly less stressful!

Ok, one other tip, when you get pregnant - which you will! Don't leave maternity leave too late. I struggled through my last few weeks at work when I knew really I was no good to no one!! If you have a job which involves people putting constant demands on you, with life and death stuff, running around all day on your feet with few breaks, then start maternity leave earlier! I wish I had taken it at around 30 weeks, instead I started at 35 weeks. I was meant to start at 36 weeks but had some holiday to use up luckily! Now I can enjoy scrubbing my whole house from top to bottom to prepare for our little bundle of joy. Also should have more time to blog more! x